McKaY

McKayism: Everything, Anything & Nothing
2005-02-25 08:46:42 (UTC)

screw me

so as for my day, this muthasucknahole that's s'ppose to
lead a discussion group for my group decided to dodge n
not show up to class. guess who had to take his lead....
if it was me, i probably coulda wing it, but nooOoOoOo...
my prof took the lead n led the discussion group. what's
the prob? none of us in the group read!! so the prof
found out none of us read n decide to announce it to the
world.... wonderful. n i knew that shit too w/o
reading... he's just so bad in leading groups that his
question don't really match the answers he's looking for n
for the whole class i'm trying to jump back in to get pts
back but i just don't know what he's looking for.... even
when times i thought of something clever to say, i
couldn't say it b/c i couldn't jump in the
conversation.... i think this whole participation thing
is getting outta control.

w/ all the procrastination n good stuff going on in my
head, i decided on my way walking back from that class
let's screw all of this bull crap n seriously focus on
school for now. screw all ya'll buttfaces, i don't care
who wants to screw me, i don't want any1 screwing me. i
know that at the very least, life is screwing me right
now. yes, at least someone or something is screwing me
right now, so i don't need any of yous... har har har....
prollie didn't sound as funny or corny as it did in my
head, but besides the point... as for the next month, i
will try very hard to start reading, doing work, studying
n all those good stuff through discipline n will power. i
just can't allow myself to be a bad practioner, human
service provider, direct care worker or whatever the hell
they call it. can't n don't wanna screw any1's life when
i graduate. isn't it amazing how much negotiation n deals
i made w/ myself w/in a 5 min walk?

on another note, i was addicted to checking for mails from
him 30 min after i decided that.....

but seriously, i'm pretty sick n tired of guessing what's
real n what's fake, what if n what not. just if i can put
an end to this crap




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