Medusa_ShadowDivine

Stage Addict
2005-02-19 23:47:08 (UTC)

Best Friend Crisist

Ever since my best friend left last year I feel like I
don't have many actual friends. Ronnie(best friend) and I
had made this incredible bond in such a short amount of
time. He tried to hang out all of the time. we both had
some serious problems within both of our families, and we
used to hang out to coupe and sometimes get them
completely out of our minds. So many people mistook our
relationship...we both thought that was really funny, even
though we have made it seem that way when either one of us
was getting hit on by someone we didn't like. we had an
awesome time together and I find it weird, looking back on
it now, that their wasn't even any sexual tension,i think
thats why the bond was so strong.I miss him a lot and his
phone is turned off(my guess) so I haven't talked to him
in like a month. Since he has left I've slit my wrist more
I've become more emotional with people around me. Its been
really empty, like there is this void.

and I have (well thought i had) a pretty cool friend
that's like Ronnie... at least until I told her that I
liked her; that was appearently a huge mistake. now
we're all weird and shes avoiding me and doesn't talk as
much as she used to ,but my fault for liking her I guess
and not really getting over her;but I have come to terms
with the fact that nothing could ever happen between us
(she has stessed that well),and I really want us to be
like we used to be.




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