Clubboi

Northern Lad
2005-02-19 10:16:59 (UTC)

Elegantly Wasted, yet feeling all writey!

Depression has set in about the whole moving
situation. I am worried about the impact of my leaving
towards my friends. I've have noticed first in life that I
thrive on having many circles of social climes in which in
co-exist with during my life travels. The likes of
extremely poor to fabulously rich. I have beheld in my
observances (is that a word) with my relationships that it
has now become very symbiotic in which we all benefit from
each other. My Jacksonville crew have their unconscious
needs of me, and I respectively have my dependecies on
them as well. The majority of the time it works out. I
pride myself on having an accomplished sense about people.
(whome to let in my world, and those to keep at arms
length) For the most part, I'd like to deduce that it
works out for both them and myself. I lead and teach those
who are willing to recieve the knowledge I have to offer,
and I lead by exaple those that acquire new traits from
example.

Wow, In hindsight I have reified that my inner
concepts/beliefs is what seperates me from every other
human being. I suspect that this is my strongest magnetic
trait that keeps my friends coming back for more. We have
a use for each other. The friends I feel closest to, are
the ones that help me as i help them (and all without
having to point it out, its just a known thing).

Brandon, (self-absorbed at times) I feel loves me so
much because I truly know how to "take" him. I see him
changing because of me (like the whole inabilty to be
touched). He summed it up best when he stated that "Conan,
I am such the square, and you are my circle", I am living
for the now, and he plans and saves. (I think its cause
hes got a little Jew in him ;).




Ad: