Tight719

My Life My Mind
2005-02-14 16:40:11 (UTC)

good? bad? love? dream?

as i wake up in the morning, for this morning. i sit up and
wonder. what this day is going to be like? good? bad? i
dont know. could i make it good? or bad? thinking of
something that's not really there anymore. feeling
something inside of me someone is thinking of me but not
really thinking of me, thinking of someone else.
thinking of words to say, or things to do. reading news.
reading poems. reading anything that could take the pain
away. i want it to go away. do i just not think about it
and just keep it a memory in back of my mind. i find myself
lost. as i wonder. am i in a big shitty ass dream that i
cant fix or do anything about. always something goes wrong
and i cant be with the person that i grown and physically
started to love. Love? Love? Love? Love?
pondering in my mind. i feel my mind go back in forth with
thoughts that i really dont want there or thoughts that i
dont know what to do with? i wish i had something. just
like everyone else. but i'm alone. only my shadow walks
beside me in this whole dreamable world that i'm in. i just
want to get out. i just want to wake up. i dont want to
dream anymore. can someone just please wake up. please?
please? please?




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