Sexy Sady

Unseen Beauty, Untamed Lust
2005-02-13 03:58:34 (UTC)

down and out

strangely enough, after that last entry i'm now depressed.
i wasnt originally but i tried to go out or get ppl to
come over since its a saturday nite and i dont have to
work tomorrow, but no one wanted to. i realized that since
my roommate and bf werent home no one else would want to
come over. none of those ppl are my friends, just friends
of my bf and roomy. i tried to explain this to my bf and
all he said was, "all my friends are your friends too." i
didnt even look at him and replied, "no one else is here
because you are workin (he was on break) and elise isnt
home yet." i over heard my roommate talkin to her man who
was asleep b4 she got back saying, "i dont think she's
goin out." nice to know i'm so unwelcome in my own fuckin
apartment. some words i can relate to (except for the
whole mother thing) from korn's song kill you off their
album life is peachy (which i actually lost my virginity
to). "living life, did she cry, my life, pain is god,
living life, you and me, again alone, i tried to be your
friend, i tried to be a good boy, i hate deep inside,
starring me, someone save me, oh these memeories fill my
head they bury me, all i want to, is kill you, all i want
to do is kill, looking back i was never ever right, mom
you always wanted me outof you site, i would come in and
i'd say hello but you'd slap me and make some fucked up
comment about my clothes, but i'd try to let pass, but the
pictures in my head were of w/ a knife up your ass, layin
dead, so i popped some more caps in your ass, mother
fuckin bitch never try to blame me, you made my life not
so, all i want to do is kill you, wish you are dead now,
how can i cry for someone i never loved, how can i cry for
someone i never loved, never loved.




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