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The Common Thread
2005-02-09 16:44:45 (UTC)

idioteque.

i don't know if it's my period, or if it is this overwhelming sense of nostalgia
that i stumble into whenever i play his old mixed cds, but i miss him so much
right now that i almost want to patch what has been broken. i don't want to
think about every reason why we aren't together, i don't want to remember
the last time he acted erratically... i just want to feel him laying next to me.
secretly smelling my hair. i want to lay next to him and listen to those cds
over and over again. give those songs meaning again.

i waited all morning for him to walk in to this room. i adjusted myself to
seem as nonchalant as possible. he never came.

disappointment.

i'm not sad, i am disappointed. and i don't believe that i will ever let him
know. it was always too diffiicult for us to talk anyway.




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