luckylaur

lauras diary
2005-02-09 02:55:46 (UTC)

alone

A couple of weeks ago, i found myself sitting on my bedroom
floor crying. 2005 has definately not been the best year so
far. Many people close to me have gotten sick, and some
died form out of nowhere. It makes me start to really see
life. That if i was to die tomorrow at age 16, would i feel
like i lived life to the fullest. my thoughts were that i
havent, i havent taken alots of chances, im just your
typical girl. I live in a small town, and go to school.
have a job, im not rich but not poor, just an average girl.
Thats how it seems from the outside, and until recently
thats how i looked at my life. now its differnt though i
actually saw what my life is all about. I didnt see this
until i would find myself crying about nothing about 3-5
times a day. I knew i had to be depressed, because i never
cry, and the few times i did i wouldnt let anyone see me.
But now i couldnt stop myself. I wanted to tell my mom,
because i felt like i needed a break from the world. But i
couldnt tell her, i havent had a real conversation with my
mom in a long time




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