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Lydia
2005-02-06 19:18:49 (UTC)

cuts

I hate feeling like i have no control over anything and
being overwhelmed by just bad feelings. I get so sad all
the time and i never knew what to do. Cutting myself is
just so incredibly relieving. I know it is not healthy and
i try hard not to but sometimes i just can't help myself.
Peter found about them. I dont want him to know. He cares
about me so much and i know it hurts him but he doesn't
understand that i need it. I don't want him to be mad at
me for it. I can't stop. Its such a rush and it takes away
so much of my pain when i do it.


I need a distraction, a beautiful release,
memories seep from my veins...




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