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The Adventures of Jules Santana
2005-02-01 20:10:03 (UTC)

Worn out and Tired

Honestly, today I just feel totally whooped and exhausted.
I feel like I have just done too much in too little of a
time. I mean for real. But anyway, work and life is going
well. I had a great time up in NYC, saw Orlando at the
house warming party that I went to and he was totally
shitty. I don't mean he was treating me shitty, I mean he
was so shitfaced drunk that he could barely speak. I
really do have some concern for him because he really needs
to be in rehab or something. I mean he had been there only
one hour before me and my crew arrived and he managed to
have downed at least 10 shots ranging from rum, whiskey,
vodka, tequila and gin. I mean jesus christ, are you
kidding me, I mean I'm getting drunk just sitting here
typing all of that. Anyway, I've started me new work out
routine and let me just say that it is coming along quite
lovely. Now I'm lifting weights (nothing major, just like
10lb weights) but I've been doing that to develop my arms
and my chest, and I do about 50 full sit-ups every night.
Now that has my body already getting into a nice shape, not
that it wasn't before, but now it's more to my liking.
I've also tried to stop pigging out so damn much as well.
So now it's all good. But I find myself working out a
little harder than I should and I think that's because to
this day I still have not had sex. Now here is where the
problem begins. I could totally have had sex, shit, I
could've had sex at least 25 times in the last week alone,
but it would've been with Bill. Now don't get me wrong,
Bill is fucking hot and has a wonderful package all
around. Hell that man can work his body like it's no one's
busines, the problem is of course his involvement with a
woman. Now, it is my understanding that he has a
girlfriend. This is what I found out maybe a year or so
ago, yet I continued to sleep with him. Then I stopped
that shit b/c I don't want to be the other person or a
homewrecker either. Now, since we've lost touch over time
and then come back and gotten in touch, I don't know if
he's still with her, nor do I really want to know. I mean
I can't imagine what type of relationship he has with her,
if they still have one, because he can manage to get
himself free and available for anything and everything at
anytime with me, and I find that fascinating. Anyway, I am
so horny, and I need some good sex in the worst way that
I'm ready to meet him tonight and get some. The question
really is, will I do it? I have no idea. Meanwhile I'm
still talking to Curtis in North Carolina. I don't know
what to make of him, I mean is it possible to grow attached
and really into someone only on the basis of talking on the
phone and sending daily emails? My life feels so insane
and I think it's from the lack of sex. Who knows, I mean
hell, I'm having dreams on a regular basis that I'm fucking
men, or just about to and yet, right when the dick is about
to go in the mouth, it's time to get up....what's up with
that?




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