cannon bombshell

troubled life of mine
2005-01-31 05:41:32 (UTC)

GOING OUT OF MY MIND

TODAY HAS BEEN REAL SHITTY FOR ME. I HAD TO BORROW MONEY
FROM MY FATHER TO HELP MY MOTHER IN LAW AND SHE WAS
COMPLANING THAT SHE DONT WANT TO PAY IT BACK SO I GUESS I
WILL HAVE TO NOW. THEN TO TOP IT ALL OF I MADE PLANS TO
TAKE MY KIDS TO THE PARK AND GUESS WHAT I CANT GO NOW
BECAUSE MY MOTHER IN LAW IS TAKING MY VAN TO TAKE SOMEBODY
ELSE TO COURT. SHE DID NOT EVEN ASK IF IT IS OK TO DO IT
SHE IS JUST GONNA DO IT. THAT TOTALLY PISSES ME OFF AND MY
HUSBAND THINKS I AM BEING A BITCH BECAUSE IT UPSET ME BUT
THAT IS NOT EVEN ALL OF IT. I GOT SENT TO MY ROOM TONIGHT
WHEN I WANTED TO WATCH TV. NOT BY CHOICE OR EVEN BY MY
HUSBAND BUT BY MY MOTHER IN LAW I THINK THAT SHE IS TRING
TO MAKE ME UPSET AND WANT TO LEAVE. I TOLD MY HUSBAND THAT
I WILL BE LEAVING ON FRIDAY I AM GOING BACK TO MICHIGAN
WHERE I BELONG AND MOVING IN WITH MY MOM UNTIL I CAN GET A
JOB AND A PLACE UP THERE. I JUST CANT GO ON LIKE THIS NO
MORE MY NERVES ARE SHOT AND I AM ALWAYS UPSET ANYMORE I
FEEL LIKE CRING AT TIMES AND IT TAKES ALL I HAVE NOT TO.
I JUST CANT GIVE UP ON MYSELF AND BE PUSHED AROUND LIKE
THIS ANYMORE. MY BABY BOY LEARNED TO ROLL TODAY I AM SO
HAPPY THAT I WAS THERE TO SEE IT. MY SISTER CALLED ME AND
TOLD ME THAT SHE CANT WAIT UNTIL I GET TO GO TO MICHIGAN
SHE IS UNAWARE THAT WHEN I GO THERE I AM NEVER COMMING
BACK HERE. THAT IS GONNA BE A TOTAL SURPRIZE FOR HER. IN
FACT NOBODY KNOWS BUT ME AND I TOLD MY HUSBAND TONIGHT. HE
IS GONNA STAY HERE WITH HIS MOM SO I GUESS IT IS OVER FOR
US HE IS NOW AND HAS ALWAYS BEEN A MOMMA'S BOY ANYWAY. SO
WHATEVER. GOD HAS A PLAN FOR EACH OF US AND I GUESS I WAS
NOT MEANT TO BE WITH MY HUSBAND. OTHER THEN THE IN LAW
DRAMA EVERYTHING IS THE SAME OL SHIT. WE JUST GOT OUR
FAMILY PICTURES BACK TO BUT I GUESS THEY WILL AGIN NEED TO
BE UPDATED SOON CAUSE OUR ONCE HAPPY FAMILY WILL SOON BE A
BROKEN FAMILY.




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