HangmanTheory

My Ruined Reputation
2005-01-30 01:45:19 (UTC)

Days You Wish Would Erase Themselves...

I know I haven't written in a while...With finals last
week and me just not feeling like doing anything lately.
I'm starting to feel like...I don't know...Sometimes I
wish I could live some days over..Don't you?

Yesterday was a minimum day since we had finals and it was
our last day. So we got out at 12:07 and the night before
I asked Lauren if she wanted to go to Potter(my old Jr.
High) with me after school on Friday to see Zak and Stui
and Katie and she said she'd go. Well right at the last
minute she told me she didn't want to go. So there goes
that plan. So I go home and Jasmin calls me and we decide
to meet outside Maie Ellis and go do whatever in town. I
was kinda upset because of a lot of things that were going
on, like the fact that Lauren's becoming a wannabe
whore...That is...talking about wanting to fuck Owens and
what not...saying she wouldn't care if he went out with
her, fucked her, and then dumped her, when I know as well
as she does that she would mind. And what made me even
more upset was that Tammy had done this to her. (I hate
Tammy just so you're all clear on that) So me and Jasmin
found eachother and by that time it was raining, so we
were both all wet, so we walked to Sav-On and looked
around there, came out and went to Albertsons. We found a
cell phone on the bench outside which turned out to be my
friend Amy's, so we got hold of her dad and he came to
pick it up, so I guess that wasn't such a bad thing. Then
we ran into Christina at the nail place getting her nails
done(I fucking hate those fake nails...) and we start
talking and I asked her why Natalie hadn't been online all
week and she told me that she had tried to kill herself on
Tuesday and had been in the hospital all week. What made
me feel even worse was that she got the idea(trying to OD
on various pills) from me because i had told her about the
time i did that...So then Natalie came and picked up
Christina because they were going to go to Disneyland the
next day. By then it was about 2:30 or something. We
decided to go into Sports Look Pizza becuase there was no
one in there except the guy who was working and so we got
a soda and just started talking about stuff. We had this
really deep conversation on both parts and by the middle
of it I had started crying and she took me into the
bathroom and we just kinda sat there for a while. At that
point I would have done anything to feel better. We stayed
in the bathroom for a while longer just sitting and not
really talking at all and then we decided to come out. We
asked the guywho was working if we could watch cartoons on
one of the 4 TVs since all that was on was sports and that
was just boring and he said we could and he gave us the
whole party room to us. So all 3 of us started to watch
the Fairly Odd Parents and we started talking to the guy
(whose name turned out to be Joey) and it turned out that
he was really kool even though he was 25 haha.
ThenJasmin's mom called and asked us if we wanted to go to
the mall and she came and picked us up and Joey told us to
come back anytime and he'd let us watch cartoons =-P So
then we went to the mall and bought whatever we could with
the like...$5 between us which was just a smoothie and a
cinamon roll. Then we went to find Jasmin's mom who was
being a huge bitch because she was trying to find a dress
for jasmin's grandma's birthday the next day and she
yelled at us whenever we gave her something we liked, so
Jasmin got all upset and wouldn't talk the whole way home.
I felt bad because I was acting really stupid around her
mom and that's maybe why her mom got so pissed off at the
end...=/

But on a lighter note...Rachel(my aunt) had her baby
yesterday!! It's a little boy and his name is Sam.
*smiles* I have a new baby cousin!




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