my uninteresting life!!
2005-01-25 10:03:49 (UTC)

far out!!

Parents had a fight and dad smashed kitchen utensils as
usual, then stormed off. I hate it when he does that. I
feel responsible coz they were argueing abt me and mum was
sticking up 4 me. Now dad is cut with both me and her and
I'm really upset. I try not to but can't help it. I start
crying uncontrollbly and thinking stupid things and they
just go round and round in my head, like that I want to
die, and if I kill myself they would feel bad and sorry,
but then I think no, no1 would notice if i died, or,
rather, they would be happy, and I really want to cut
myself and bleed everywhere and I really want to throw up
but damn I had sandwiches for tea and they don't come up
well at all. I wish I was less sensitive- sometimes I envy
those morons that just cruise through life without many
worries or emotions or guilt. Arght- I think I will just
go and eat. Bye.