sillywizard

Wizard's World of Wonder
2005-01-17 21:53:31 (UTC)

Alienation


One of the most difficult things I have, and to a certain
extent now, is dealing with other people and having a sense
of belonging. It is quite difficult to relate to those who
live a mundane life and those who get caught up in all the
la-dee-dah of this world. The topics that most people
engage in I find rather boring and of no value or little
value. It is difficult to find a level of understanding
with others who do not know what I am talking about, or do
not wish to know.
It is one of the drawbacks to this life. If you do not
follow the leader, you will not be apart of society. If you
are not for it you are against it, or it is against you. So
in a way I can really understand what it is like the Matrix
to have all these people who are resistant to them. They do
not change into men in black with microphones in their
ears, but there is a distinct difference in their eyes, as
well as their faces. They have noted that there are cases
in psychology where an individuals face will become
distorted when the have m.p.d. and the "fronts" change. It
is similar to that. So you can be walking down the street
minding your own stuff and this guy suddenly tries to run
you off the road for no reason.
There is a conciousness to this society, and if you don't
feed it with the thoughts of everyone else, you become a
threat to it, and it tries to illiminate you.
So when you go through this process of enlightenment or
transendence, there is a different way of seeing this
world. It becomes less important the more you move away.
You really start to see its psychosis and you feel like you
don't want to be a part of it. Yet there is a part of you
that longs to be with people. Its frustrating at times.
Like everything there is a paradox to this place. It can be
quite lonely at times. And the fact that you see things
that most people do not see, you get labeled and
stigmatized. Even though you know it seems crazy, as you do
feel crazy many times, there is truth in what you
experience. So you can't jsut hobble of to the doctors and
say "Im going nuts and I need a shot of illusion". Its not
that simple, because when you do experience another realm
or another way of seeing this world, you know its real, you
dont have the same kind of mentality that the general
populace has. You kinda get shocked into another way of
perception, and it can shake your world up if your not
willing to let go of how you think the world should be, or
how others think this world should be. The hard part to it
is when you do see the world differently, very few people
will accept it, because they havent experienced what you
have gone through.
So it is a lonely road to travel. But at the same time it
is quite magnificant. You see a beauty beyond description
and you feel true peace. Your not getting caught up in what
others think is life or death. You feel peacefull no matter
who is in office because you have transended the world
mind. It doesnt matter. The only thing you care about is
allowing whatever to unfold and take you to where you need
to go. Whatever will be will be, so you can relax and not
fight anymore. No worrying, no stress or anxiety, now thats
peace.

~S.W.~




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