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Rob
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2005-01-16 09:08:10 (UTC)

Sunday 16 January 2005

Today is just another one of those days.. wake up.. sleep
in till 11, work at 12 and home again at 6. ALthough my
mate Andrew did come over (hes still over now) and we were
going to play some network games together (not that i'm
realy into them) but since he is "the team leader" he said
i shudn't play this time.. It seems like everytime he comes
over he just wants to play on my computer. My mum and I
both think thats the only reason why he comes over. If i
didn't have the computer then he probably wouldn't want to
come over because when he plays counter strike hes in a
seperate world and doesn't know anything else around is
real. Strange aye.. Ne whoes.. Still thinking about
Caroline (Caz) She prefers Caz to Caroline. All day, all
nite shes all i think about. I wish i could get these
thoughts out of my head and just want to be friends because
recently (after asking her out and getting rejected :( )
she hasn't realy talked to me much and i think shes annoyed
or something at me. I dont wanna keep txting her because i
no myself that can get annoying.. so maybe i shud give her
some space. I just dont wanna loose contact with her as
shes moving schools now so yea.. I'm gona miss her heaps.
ON a more happy side.. everything else in my life is
great!! Got a good holiday job, parents say they are proud
of me, just bought myself a digital camera, and yea
everything is going well. So i shouldn't let one thing make
me depressed shud i? I dunno if i shud just try and forget
about her or not.. I mean dont forget about her totally but
forget about the idea of ever going ou with her or if i
shud still try and just be friends now. Ahh i'm rambling on
and on and probably making no sense what so ever. She is
just such a great person and i dont wanna loose our
friendship. Anyways.. at least this online diary listens. I
dont really have anyone else to talk to now. As my sister
has a boyfriend shes always with him and i never see her at
home alone so we can talk like we used to, shes always out
or home with him and i dont like him that much. hes cool
and everything but yea we have nothing in common. And my
parents never listen, my best friend andrew is too obsessed
with cs to listen.. there is amanda who is mostly there to
listen but same with my sister shes got a boy friend now
and is always busy. Hmm I dont think i have as many friends
as i thought i did. I mean i used to be involved in a lot
of things with a group of friends at school but now they
never invite me to anything. I dont know if i've been to
clingy or not clingy enough. But hopefully the new year i
can start a new. The good thing ab8 not having more friends
than one or two is that i can concentrate on my studies. I
have found my grades have improved a lot so that is good.
But i need a social life and i really want a girlfriend.
Desperate i know but yea. Anyways im gona finish now.. I'll
probably write again tomorrow if i feel like it
Rob


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