Elizabeth

Elizabeth M.
2005-01-15 19:53:21 (UTC)

The wall

Emptiness is all I feel right now.
Wanting, waiting and wishing is what I am doing.
He's in my thoughts and mind all of the time.
He consumes me. I am unable to see him.
He hides from me, there is a wall in front of me.
Tho everyday we are together a brick comes down from
his wall. I find that I am making progress. All I
ask is to let me in. Everyday we are apart another brick
replaces the one I removed. I get so tried sometimes,but
I know that if I stop then the wall will grow and be out of
my reach. Can't he make it easy on me and start to take this
wall down. My love for him is strong. I will continue to
try to remove this wall for the next week. I am afraid that
I am starting to give up on breaking his wall down. I grow
so tried of fighting to keep what should be mine. I am not
one to give up with out a fight but sometimes you fight a
losing fight. I will continue for 1 week, then I am
throwing in the towel.
Tho my heart will break again into a million pieces, I will
move on and slowly it will mend again. I look at the
pictures of him and I. We are so happy in them....Why
doesn't he confess his love for me, why does he make things
harder then what they should be? This is drama....face your
fears and deal w/them, move forward in life. You don't need
to go looking for happiness because it's right infront of
your face, I already miss him... I miss staring at him,
looking at his face and his eyes.. those eyes and those
looks he gives me. We are ment to be, I would swear on my
life,I have never been so sure in my life, I would stake my
soul on it. That is how sure I am.




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