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Leah's Thoughts
2005-01-08 16:27:31 (UTC)

Word of encouragement to myself

I am going to be a better person for me...I am so not going
to let my heart get into a bind...I am going to speak my
mind openly now..and not let anyone do it for me. If it
doesnt feel right I am going to end it...meaning any
relationship with friends or anyone I meet.
I am going to do everything for me and my son no one else...
My feelings are going to come first in my life and then my
sons.
I am going to start reading the bible to better me....and
if anyone has a problem with it then they can keep there
opinons to themself.
I am never going to have a relationship until I am done
school and have a job.
I am not going to miss him...
I dont know he is gone...and he told me he doesnt know what
I want from him....that I move to fast. He said he will
think about coming back to visit...But I dont know I really
dont know what to think. I love my parents but they let me
decide on what I want to do in life. And if I make a
mistake then oh well I gotta suck it up and try all over
again. I dont know if I could let someone run my life. I
seen so much in the last week. I am glad he came to visit
me I was able to know what I want out of a relationship. I
am not mature enough to have a relationship. I dont think I
am capable of it. So from now on I am going to do things
for me. I am not ready for a realationship and when I am I
know that who ever I am with has to put up with me and I
feel sorry for him already.
Oh well this is me...like me or love me..




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