ErykahKayne

My Daily Bread
2005-01-04 03:31:09 (UTC)

frustrated pt 2

hey ya'll. so i just got done looking up some bus ticcets
for Reggie, right? but to be honest, i'm just so perturbed
(i been usin this word all day) about this whole situation
right now that i just don't know what to do. i mean, his
money didn't come to the bank and i have no clue what the
fucc is going on. he told me, but i'm still not
understanding what the hold up is. i been on the phone with
him almost all day..off and on. (i did make it to work
today) and i know that he's frustrated too because what
nigga likes to be without money? none that i know. NOBODY
for that matter. and it's just..i don't know. i don't know
what to do. ain't nothin i can do really. i got stuff to
pay for here myself. i wish i could send him some money but
i just don't see how i can do it and not have something
laccin somewhere. tomorrow i have to pay Brooke the rest of
his money for the car, get some tags which expired on the
1st, buy some oil,..and i know there's something i'm
forgetting.. but MAYBE i'll have enuff money to get my hair
or nails done. next month it's all about baby shopping
though. and i should be in a little bit better position
becuzz all this stuff with the car will be over. but i have
to send my dad 100$ so he doesn't take me off the
insurance. SHIT! it seems like i will never get ahead. but
this is part of my growing process so i'll sticc thru it. i
wanna call my mama so bad and ask her to send me a ticcet
bacc home lol..but no, i will not. and truthfully, i think
this is making me a better person. i mean, i think i've
been doing pretty good. i don't need to ask my sisters for
money or anything but since i'm the "baby" and i've been
doing what i'm supposed to, they slide me money every now
and then. especially shell. and shit, i do not turn it
down. lisa pays me every week for babysitting so that's
some extra money too. but i don't see how the hell i can
pay some rent at this stage in the game. i mean, with the
way my finances look by the end of the month. they do have
lots of apartments here that are rented based on ur income
and with the way mine look i think i should pay about 1
dollar a month lol..and that's another thing..i haven't
been looking for about 2 weeks. i need to step it up on
that end. but i was waiting for reggie to see how much he
was going to get and to see how much his unemployment would
be from being in the military and all but that ain't even
coming thru like it's supposed to right about now. so i
guess i need to get bacc on the grind and do what i gotta
do cuzz i can't be waiting for that. who knows when they'll
get it figured out. the gov't don't be half wantin to pay
nobody as it is. hopefully everything will work out. i have
no doubt that it will..but when is the question. all i can
do is pray...and that's about it. on that note, i'll holla
at ya'll later.




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