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2005-01-02 20:03:26 (UTC)

As Promised

As promised, today is the day I tell about something that
happened to me in my freshman year of high school (last
year) between me and a guy. No names will be mentioned
(some of you reading this might know him if I say name!!)
Here goes.

It was my freshman year of high school. I was making a ton
of friends, and I had just gotten back from winter break,
when, in my math class, I saw someone that I knew since
7th grade in middle school. I figured, "Hey that's cool, a
guy I know has the same class as me." (YES IT'S A GUY!)
During the year, I started to develop a crush on him. My
friend and I were passing notes to each other all year
(she was in 8th grade, I was in 9th, but we lived real
close to each other and got off and on at same stop). I
told her in a note I liked him. After a few months, I
decided to write him a note and told him I liked him (he
never did respond to the letter). After a few weeks, I
went to my friend's house and hung out w/ her. She knew I
still liked him, so she called him up (they had went out
previous year, so she had his number) and asked him out
for me. The next day, the 3 of us were on phone and he
said sure. I was SO HAPPY! We went out for 3 days, and
then my friend called me and told me he was at her house
and told her to call me and said that he wanted to break
up with me. I was kind of sad. I mean, I REALLY liked
him...she told me the next day (we were going to this
thing in Orlando for 3 days) and she told me he asked her
out the SAME DAY he broke up with me and she said
yes..they went out, broke up, went out, broke up, went
out...all in all, about 4 or 5 times that year I
think..after their last break up for that year.........she
told me SHE asked HIM out when he was at her house and HE
said yes!! You can imagine how hurt I felt. She knew I
liked him..but she said she still had feelings for him and
was jealous of me when she found out we were going out...

I forgot about all of that, then, sometimes last year, I
think maybe October or so, I heard a song that reminded me
of him and what happened...and now I can't stop THINKING
ABOUT HIM! Why can't I? I don't love him...I don't
think...so WHY CAN'T I STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM! Here is
the song:

I've been waiting all day here for you babe
So won't you come sit and talk to me
And tell me how we're gonna be together always
I hope you know that when it's late at night
I hold on to my pillow tight
And think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone) Could make me feel this way
(Now that you're here boy all I want) Is just a chance to
say

[chorus]
Get out (leave) right now
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
'Cause I know, about her (who)
And I wonder (why)
How I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right
But you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Tell me why you're looking so confused
When I'm the one who didn't know the truth
How could you ever be so cold?
To go behind my back and call my friend
Boy you must've gone and bumped your head
Because you left her number on your phone
(So now after all is said and done)
Maybe I'm the one to blame, but
(To think that you could be the one)
Well it didn't work out that way

[chorus]
Get out (leave) right now
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
(you to be gone)
'Cause I know, about her (who)
And I wonder (why)
How I bought all the lies (all the lies)
You said that you would treat me right (you said that you)
But you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

I wanted you right here with me
But I have no choice, you've gotta leave
Because my heart is breaking
With every word I'm saying
Boy, I gave up everything I had
On something that just wouldn't last
But I refuse to cry
No tears will fall from these eyes (ohh, ohh)

Get out!

[chorus]
Get out (leave) right now
It's the end of you and me (you and me)
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
(you to be gone)
'Cause I know, about her (who)
And I wonder (why)
How I bought all the lies (how did buy all your lies?)
You said that you would treat me right (you said that you)
But you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Get out (leave) right now
It's the end of you and me (hey yeah)
It's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
(you to be gone)
'Cause I know, about her (who)
And I wonder (why)
How I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right (treat me right)
But you was just a waste of time (ooh)

Get out (leave)
(you and me)
It's too late (now)(too late) (you)
About her (who)(why)
You said that you would treat me right
But you was just a waste of time(waste of time) (ohh)

Leave!

As you can tell, it is JoJo's song Leave (Get Out). The
part that REALLY reminded me of him was this part:

Tell me why you're looking so confused
When I'm the one who didn't know the truth
How could you ever be so cold?
To go behind my back and call my friend
Boy you must've gone and bumped your head
Because you left her number on your phone

Ever since I've heard that song, it's like I can't stop
thinking about him no matter how hard I try or want to. I
guess it's because he was the first guy I was ever happy
with..I don't know..just want to stop thinking about him..

If any girls or guys (pref girls though) have a hunch as
to why I can't stop thinking about him, please feel free
to email me. I'm so confused about the whole thing right
now..... I've written some songs about him, about to write
another, but only have the chorus, which says:

I try forgetting about you
Why is it so hard to do?
Could it be, baby
that you just want me to see that you still care about me?

I don't have anymore written than that part..I might even
make a poem about it..If I do, this will be the first
place I post it so I can get some feedback on it.

Ok, I think this entry is long enough xD. If you read all
of it, thanks! If not, no worries! Will do an entry later
on today or possibly tomorrow..

*~*~*~*~*~*~Jen~*~*~*~*~*~*


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