Hate This & I'll Love You
Ad 2:
2005-01-02 17:19:07 (UTC)

this isnt me!

im so confused!

i have so much emotion inside and i have absolutely no way
of letting it out! this is the on-going problem i have
refered to before and nodoubt will do again. i dont know
what is wrong with me, i dont know what to do and i need
some kind of release. music has been it up until now, but
things got broken and although music still is i need
something more personal to me to be the release.
rob is listening friend and i worry that i scare hin with
the amount of complete and utter bollocks i say. most of
it is in a time of deep deep emotional confusion and he is
the only one who will listen. i am going insnane i really
am, i know this and it worrys me and no doubt other people
but i have no idea wot to do with myself. i have basicly
given up on everything and become a total recluse with
very few friends and even fewer sane brain cells in my
head! i am longing for a solution and in the short term i
see nothing. suicide is definately not an option, if you
have ever spoken to me b4 you will know how much i oity
self harmers and how i will NEVER be one and how it solves
no problems mentally, phisically and spiritually. i have
no where to go, nothing to do and am running in circles
looking for it/her/them/the final solution to all my
problems witch i know is not going to be one thing in
itself but maybe a combonation of things for a multitude
of problems being faced by me. where are you? find me, i
am lost!

Destroy the spineless
Show me it's real
Wasting our last chance
To come away
Just break the silence
'cause I'm drifting away
Away from you