Ahhhh, school finished today for christmas break, that was
a relief, beginning to drag a bit. Rugby season over for
school now as well, gonna be a shame not playing with most
of the team again (they are leaving, i got one more year
left at school). But just as exciting to introduce tweleve
new players next year to form a team.
Cant wait till tomorrow, first driving lesson, gonna
be good, bit worried because i dont want to fuck up to
much, yet i cant wait until i can drive, pick up my mates,
gf, road trips, endless possibilities, all in one vehicle!
Seeing my girl tonight, looking forward to that, we
either going to go pizza hut, or im just going round,
should be good. Aint seen her for like a week where we been
busy and stuff so going to be really good, and i guess it
sounds silly, but i miss her loads and when im with her i
just feel like im complete, like the whole person ya know?
On thursday going to see my dad to, dont really want
to, dont really like seeing him, but its only for an hour
or so, and its christmas,and that means a lot to.
The good side, great holiday, time with family friend
and loved ones, bad side, brings back memories of the oh so
recent split up of my parents, and just what it was like
the first christmas without my dad. The worst thing was, up
until that point, he was the only person i ever looked up
to, and even though its pretty sad, he was my hero. Now its
me, and i do things my way, i dont need help to suceed, and
i have never actually took help from anyone, but the only
difference now is, im my own role model, and i look up to
myself. I done so many good things and achieved so much in
the last two years i just think of why i ever believed in
anyone else other than myself.
Now dont get me wrong i aint bitter, and i certaintly
aint one of those weird only children that people always
seem to believe there are, ya know the spoilt know it all
type. Im all for friends and family, just well my dad aint
really part of that these days, and if im quite honest i
dont really want him to be.
Im 17, its my life, and im going to take myself wherever
i want to be, thats success. I guess you gotta be confident
in this world otherwise ya just get kicked down ya know?
Its all about stepping up, and taking the world face on,
grit ya teeth and get on with life and make the very best
of it until you see the big man upstairs.
Anyways, as per normal im ranting on a bit here. If
anyone wanst to chat about anything, just leave me a
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