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Not Every Day You See This Stuff
2004-12-18 01:01:08 (UTC)

1st grade

Going back to first grade these past few days have made
me realize that we all wern't assholes once. 1st graders
are so intelligent and so bright. they see things so
clearly and so simply, where as adults try to make
everything complicated. i'm seriously thinking about
helping out my aunt every monday-wednesday, and fridays...
just because i love the kids in her class.
i had a riveting conversation with a little boy (Owen),
he's one of my favorite kids there. we talked about all
sorts of things... then we talked about why girls are so
mean. :) i loved it. we went into the facts that cooties
don't exist and that even if they say that they don't like
you, they probably do. he asked me if i was mean to my
boyfriend, and truthfully, i said yes. he asked me if i
make him sad when i am mean and i said that i wasn't sure,
but that i am sure he wasn't happy. he asked me why i was
mean... just like all the girls on the play ground. and i
said that my type of mean was a little bit different. and
that i say that i am sorry. its just that sometimes i have
my mood swings and i cant help it. he told me that it
probably hurts my boyfriends feelings when i say mean
thing. i knew that. he also said that its not very nice. i
knew that too. but what i sort of knew that a 1st grader
brought to my attention was that even though things may
seem peaceful on the surface... a storm may be brewing
inside.
this kid is so wonderful. he has nice parents and good
manners. but because of his manners he gets teased... a
lot. and i wish that i could help him out. he's such a
sweetie. he is always a "yeah sure i can" type of guy...
and on the inside he's being eaten alive by these
elementary kids. whats sad... it'll get worse as he moves
on to jr. high and High school. fuck people.

mmm well yeah... oh! i died my hair again.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (yesterday) RYAN DILL. i love ya!

and thats my life.

later days-
The Pathetisad girl that has to get advice from a 1st
grader.

Current mood: drained
Current music: Hush TOOL




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