X is my secret.
alright here's the update.
I'm so fucking pissed at everyone right now. Alright, not
EVERYBODY. I'm pissed at my family. My brothers are actually
not bugging me. But my dad is doing the whole oh I'm not
going to get anything important done until it's too late. My
mother is on this weird I love you with all my heart and am
going to buy you the world phase. That is different from her
usual personality, because it's usually I'll buy the boys
I'm also pissed at everyone who keeps digging into me on why
I didn't have fun going clubbing. I HATED IT OK!? BACK OFF!!
None of you will understand. Jess understood. That's about
it. The rest of you would call me stupid, or pathetic. You'd
tell me to get over it, move on, quit feeling what I feel.
Well [email protected]#$ YOU!!! It was boring, the part I will tell you is
that I was shy, yes I know, MISTIN SHY?! but I am [email protected]#$ING
ANTI-SOCIAL A LOT MOTHER [email protected]#$ERS!! PAY ATTENTION SOME TIME
AND YOU'D SEE!!! I don't like going places with too many
people that I don't know. I dont' do "Mistin" stuff until
I'm really comfortable.
I have decided I am going to change majors. I don't know
exactly what yet. But as I was going through this week, I
noticed something. When it came to getting things done for
Design class, it is always a hassle to do. It takes me days
or even weeks for me to go buy anything. BUT when I decided
I wanted to go and pick up some reading material by a
certain James Joyce, "Ulysses" and "Finnegan's Wake"
I went to teh library as soon as I found they had it. I went
to a new place, on my own, and looked through the many
versions to find them. This is when I decided, walking home
at 8:30 PM in the cold wiht no coat ,that I was not heading
in the right direction with my life. I decided that I had
started to find my true interests and abilities. Although I
did find that one of my abilities is NOT understanding 17th
century Irish. LOL
Another great thing, well, and also depressing thing that
has happened is that I found out I will probably have my
room to myself next semester. Melissa's mom told her that
she would help pay for an appartment. So I will be alone, at
least I hope, I dont' want a new roomie, it's either Melissa
or no one DARN IT!!! But I am pretty excited. MY FAVORITE
THING IS THAT I'M STILL GOING TO LOFT. LMAO. Everytime I
tell people that, they burst out laughing (if they know what
a loft is). I am going to have HELLA ROOM in here. If anyone
wants to come visit YOU CAN CRASH AT MY PLACE. BACHELERETTE
Well, that's all I have for now. I am doing lots 'o' John
thinking so I'll get back to you on that.