Charles Deason

My Blue Sky
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2004-11-23 18:50:37 (UTC)

One week later... is it the end?

I did it. I wrote to her that I have a broken heart in a
letter I sent two days ago. She should be getting it
today... I'm so scared. I decided that today we either
break up and I live in eternal pain for the rest of my life
or... she tells me that she doesn't want to break up with
me and we stay in love. I've been hurting soo soo bad. I
can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't feel happiness or
pleasure. All I feel is pain. Its such a horrible feeling.
And it gets worse, my body is slowly dying from the inside.
Today I must find the courage in my heart to ask her why
she felt so distant from me in such a short period of time.
This isn't like her at all. I know one thing is for certain
though. I can't keep going on living like this... its
literally killing me. I love her, and I want her to love me
back like the way we used to be. I'd do ANYTHING for that
feeling. It was like a dream from heaven. And you know,
it... its still there! Right inside my head. I think I can
pull us both back together by my birthday... I can only
hope though, if we make it through today. If I can just
find the right words to say, and continue following my
heart and my dreams I just know I'll find true love and be
happy! Yes, there is always a chance something terrible
might happen. But I have a chance and I'm taking it! Bye!

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