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The Road to Vegetaria
2004-11-21 02:07:21 (UTC)

Whatever I want

Saturday November 20 2004
8:57pm EST

*sigh* All I had to do was TALK to him. And it was all
better. I should have known. I should have given him more
credit.

So last night Jon and I went to dinner at some little
Italian place, nothing fancy. Our dinners were just ok.
Not great. We came home, watched some TV. I got a little
upset because he fell asleep on the couch when I'd asked
him not to. I told him it just makes me feel really alone,
at least it did last night. So, I got sad, he could tell,
when we went up to bed and turned the lights off, he
pressed me a little bit and I just told him how upset and
scared I am about wedding stuff. I cried a bunch. And he
basically told me that whatever I wanted was fine. If I
didn't want a reception at all, that was fine with him. If
I wanted a backyard barbecue, that was fine. Whatever I
want. He just wants me to be happy.

So, that's that. Woke up today and cuddled a little, felt
MUCH better.

And I'm SO relieved. I just wish my mom wouldn't ask me
about it. I talked to her for a while today and she asked
how things were going. I mentioned that Jon and I still
haven't made any real plans with it, we're still
discussing things. Told her that Jon's mom asked him if we
all wanted to talk about wedding stuff when she and my
stepdad come to town and how Jon said no, because he and I
haven't gotten things figured out yet. So, yeah. Back off
momma.

We cleaned a bit today. Or, rather, I cleaned. We moved
the couches around, trying to find out where they look
best. It's hard, the living room is long and rectangular
and it's hard to get the couches just so. I cleaned the
upstairs bathroom and the kitchen, and the second room.. I
love when it's clean.

Jon's got a few friends over. Some good guys -- we got
pizza. Then Tom was supposed to come over -- he may have
arrived already. Jon asked if he should mention to the
other guys that Tom is gay, because when these other guys
get together, it's all about "playing gay" all the time.
Like, talking to each other in the "gay voice" and
stuff... and Jon wants to respect Tom's privacy but he
also doesn't want Tom to get offended or be uncomfortable
around these guys. I didn't know what to tell him -- Tom's
really private and he'd probably be pissed if Jon told his
friends that he's gay. So... I dunno. They're being a
little loud, but it's not bad. Hopefully they'll quiet
down when it's time for bed. I'm SO glad we have so much
extra room now... when we lived in Manhattan, whenever Jon
had friends over they were always right outside the
bedroom door in the living room, and if I had to pee, I'd
have to get up and walk out in front of everyone.. like,
the TV was up against the bedroom wall so they'd all be
staring at me.. it sucked. So glad we have ROOM now.

Ahh... they're watching Ali G. I LOVE that show. We have
it on DVD. Funny shit.

Tim and Lisa are coming up tomorrow, we'll get a good
meal. Hopefully Tim will treat since they canceled on us
for today. Bastards. I miss them a lot.

I'm gonna go watch a little TV. Maybe I'll read a bit
before bed tonight. I love lazy weekends at home.




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