heatherrrrrrrr

ching-ching!!!!
2004-11-11 17:35:26 (UTC)

hmmm

i dont know what to do..i dont wanna get married but im
stuck in a fuckin situation right now that now i will be..i
said yes..but f'real im not in love..hes nice n all but he
causes too many fuckin problems n fuckin he tells me what
to do n how i need to be..like im not good enuf..well that
was in the beginning but fuckin how can u love someone whos
like that..someone that tried to change you when u first
met..n fuckin i talk to him about everything..n he
listens..thats the good thing..he never used to listen..n i
listen to him..but theres no love..n i believe him when he
says he loves me cuz he gets me EVERYTHING..when i need
something hes right there..but nah..i still dont love
him..i dont know if thats being a bitch or not..but i
remember he tried to break up with me on our like 2nd date
because we're so different..yea right i got pissed n fuckin
he took me back..n everytime now that we try to break up he
ends up fuckin following me home or hes just right
there..he cant just fuckin leave me alone..n i talked to my
dad last night about everything he says..like stop taking
my meds..especially my birth control n my dad flipped out
lol..i thought it was funny.."IS HE CRAZY!!" yea... n
fuckin he needs me to tell him where im goin n shit like
hes my dad..he yelled at me for not telling him i was goin
to mirandas in the morning..whatever..:/ i like him..but i
dont love him..i dunno..n fuckin he tells me i need to have
his baby when i turn 18 n im like..wtf..i dont need a
fuckin baby right now..im in a tough situation..but
yea..somehow ill get outta it..i hope..i have a feeling i
never will..someone please help me




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