Mrs_Goodbar28

Lyrics of a Soul
2004-11-11 08:43:59 (UTC)

Is that too much to ask for?!

And then, life seemed to return back to a somewhat normal state.
Wednesday was blessed b/c after my 8 am class, I'd taken off from work so I
could work on my story for the newspaper, but I ended up not having to do it,
so I slept instead. It felt wonderful b/c I was so tired and then I scrapped up
two more poems before my 2 p.m. class. And that is all I recall of
Wednesday, should my memory freshen, I will modify the details. Then
Thursday, nothing but meetings since one of my classes was cancelled. I
talked to Nita through the class that wasn't cancelled, so later when it was
time for my meeting, she dropped me off while Key delivered some candy to
her relatives at home. After that meeting, I went to another for the black
student group, where I was so fed up with Jay and Mouse's little group they
formed on the end of the table that I called them out for talking non-stop
during the meeting. So I got a little attitude, but so be it. I think everyone
was on edge that nite b/c nobody was holdin back comment. Once that was
over, Vee gave me a ride home and though I kind of wanted to go out, I
stayed in and tried to study.

Friday came and I went to class and work afterwards, a little early. I wanted
to get in as many hours before the cutting is official. After that, I went home
and did nothing for a while. Vee suggested we go to Eli and Jae's party in
Kansas, but then backed out b/c Que had an issue with her staying with an
old hookup (Eli, remember). I called Nita to see whut they were up to, but as
usual, they weren't up to much. I was bored out of my mind so Vee and I
decided to fix dinner at her house and just hang out til her man became
available. I kept pondering whether or not to call the Libra for my own
entertainment, though I was horny, I just didn't want to give him the
satisfaction of having me ask him, or even insinuate. I want him to charm
me, ultimately, to get over himself enough to convince me that I should be
with him and to admit that he actually wants me, I know he does! So I
refrained from calling b/c I'd already called Thursday, so I wasn't gonna play
myself by callin two nites in a row. Well needless to say, I ended up goin to
bed after Vee dropped me off, not even having my Bun B to talk to. Oh, and
I've decided his new name must be J.R., which is sort of one of his nicknames.
I know he'll never see this, so it's safe. Anyway, needless to say, I went to bed
a bit peeved about that.

Saturday started sucky, but turned out pretty cool. I went to work bright and
early and ran into Nita and a friend on the way. They thought I was
volunteering for the game and I can't decide which would be worst, the game
or my job as it stands. The idea of workin the game appealed to me this time
b/c the proposed list of helpers included my buddy Nita, Que again, and Doc,
so of course, I was intrigued. I mean, how many more times will I get to see
him before he graduates next month. Work was boring as usual. I left early
and got home and did nothing. I took a long nap and tried to study some,
which I did get some done, not all, but I'm tryin. Then Nita calls and tells me
we're goin out, so I start gettin dressed. We got out by 11:30 and in the
meantime, I try to talk to J.R., but he keeps tellin me to call him before I go to
bed b/c he's cleaning. I only called twice, but it was buggin me b/c I wanted
to talk and he just had to focus on cleaning when I hadn't talked to him all
day! I know, I'm an official sap. Long story short, we ended up buyin some
alcohol to take shots and return to main street after the clubs let out, when
Nita started gettin cramps. So I went home with some of my liquor and was
about to go to bed when some of my earlier calls were returned.

I called J.R. finally, but he was so tired he said like two words to me, so I was
a bit upset that I didn't really get to talk to him when he kept pushing me to
wait and call him then. On top of that, I get a call from the most arrogant
jerk on the face of this earth! You guessed it, the Libra! His punk-ass
broadcasts for the whole world and had the nerve to ask me if I was callin him
to get me right! As if, his ass don't even know how to speak to a woman, I
hardly think he'd know how to properly DO me! I've already summed him up
to be self-centered and just plain simple so that just did it for me. I told him
not to flatter himself and he had the nerve to get offended, so he told me to
go to sleep and I said I WILL, which translates into, ya coulda had some, but
ya just fucked it up, I'd much rather sleep alone than with you! I don't feel
he's respectful at all and I coupled that with the incident where I asked him
for a hug and he grabbed my ass instead, he's just plain rude and I don't take
disrespect from no one. I mean, even if we were to just have sex, I'd feel like
a whore the way he behaves, that relationship would be a disgrace to my self-
respect. Dealing with his stupid ass, I think I'm done for sure, especially after
today...I'll explain below.

After dealin with the Libra's silly ass, El called me back and asked if I were up.
He sounded bored so I decided I'd be nice and let him hang out with me since
he's always giving me grief about that. He came over around a quarter after 3
and it was then Sunday morning. We joked and bantered over Too Wong Foo
which was on t.v. and his football career, which I detest b/c he's too good to
waste his talent as a token athlete. I put on a movie of his choice and
watched him fall asleep next to me, but when I got sleepy, I suggested he
could sleep on the couch. Not that I never want to have sex with him again,
but 1) he does have a girlfriend and I don't just do stuff like the Doc thing on
a regular basis and 2) he'd actually have to put in some work if we ever did it
again and I don't know if I want to spoil our platonic bond with regular sex.
But then, Jae called me and we caught up for old times sake b/c we hadn't
talked in nearly 6 months, so that was cool to hear back from him. Eli hadn't
returned my call, but from whut Vee tells me, he still cares about how she
regards him, so she may have something to do with his contacting me. It
was funny though b/c as El got up from the couch to leave, a condom and
some other stuff fell out of his pocket and I saw it before he did...guess he
was hopin I'd start somethin or invite him to my room. I laughed to myself
and pretended not to see when he said "Oh shit" and snatched up his
belongings, trust me, it was funny! Eventually, not until five minutes to 6 am,
El strolled his sleepy self to his car and I found solace in my bed.

Naturally, I missed the church service, not that I wanted to see the Libra's
hypocritical ass anyway. So I slept til my heart's content and cleaned the
apartment as best I could while talking to my brothers and sisters at home. I
hadn't realized I never left the apartment all day, but I was content with that
and I ended the nite laughing with my J.R. who apologized for not speaking to
me, practically the whole weekend. Monday was cool since we had a good
meeting. I went through my routine schedule and then the meeting where I
ran into Que and Vee tryin to get private time outside. So I teased them as I
went in and greeted everybody I knew and didn't know when it was time. I
even hugged Doc who made another comment about my breast and instead
of thanking him, I told him to be good, but he had that tone in his voice and
indicated that he might want another break soon. Silly me, I just might oblige
him. After the black student group leaders made their conference
presentation, which was hilarious, we got through business quick so the
meeting wouldn't get boring and then had a panel of grad students tell us
about the grad school experience, which lasted all nite. It was cool, and it
made me think about how I'd never see the Libra contributing his time to
anything selfless like this b/c he's too busy worrying about hisself at the gym.
So that was that.

I've caught up for the most part, but I'll finish tomorrow, it's damn near 3 am.
And pray Rambo doesn't turn off the heat tonite or I'll have somethin vicious
for her ass tomorrow, if I get sick, she will feel my wrath! I can't stop people
that get hot all the time, but wanna walk around in hoodie sweaters all damn
day! Oh, and speakin of people pissin me off, the Libra maturely ignored me
today at the gym. I looked square at him so I could catch his eye to speak,
but he acted like I wasn't even there, when last week, he always made it a
point to walk up to Karan and I, so I've pretty much crossed his name out and
it won't be long before his number is deleted from my phonebook. Just a
little tidbit: ladies, disrespectful men are never worth it, besides, you must
even ask if he qualifies as a man, acting like that. Until next time, live, love,
life!




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