Hakerz338

Grass is Greener on the Other Side
2004-11-10 09:33:43 (UTC)

Shrink this!

I don't know. My shrink made some good points. If she (lsr)
really wanted this, what we had, the parents wouldn't have
mattered. She wouldn't have left me when I needed her. I
don't know what to think. My doc wants me to stop talking
to her. Remove the source of pain. I haven't been listening
to her and I really don't know. What if she's right and I'm
wrong. What if I'm right and she's wrong. It wasn't fair my
doc blamed lsr, on the failure of the relationship.
However, I stood up to her, told her she was wrong. LSR
wanted it as much as I did. We went into the whole what is
love talk. She thought, LSR and my relationship was lust,
but I say it was love. ARGH!! Anyways, I got my bass today,
and had fun at the concert. I ended up actually saving a
chick from the pitt from getting trampled on, who gave me a
kiss on the cheek :). Mest was fucking awesome. I've
fucked with the electric guitar alot and now I got the
bass. All I've been doing have been messing with the
guitars because it keeps me busy. I love playing music.
I've actually got a jam session Sunday, and one coming up
next Thurday. Hopefully, I'll get into a band in the next
few months. Many things are bothering me. It's ironic LSR
is telling me to be strong, when she couldn't hold it
together. It's irking me that my doc wants me to not talk
to her. I have to decided what I'm going to do. Two days
till I'm nineteen. They want me to drink, they want me to
smoke, they want me to do some stuff...maybe, being a goody
goody hasn't gotten me anywhere. Maybe that's what I
need...get retarded. I'm so tired. I can't think straight.
I'll figure all this out before it's to late.

4:32 AM




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