~damastez~

Damastez
2004-11-09 16:27:30 (UTC)

metaphors and dreams

last night i had a good dream. it really started before i
went to bed. i usually ask my mother for advice on
situations i dont feel comfortable with, however, i usually
dont take her advice. and 99% of the time, she is right, i
fuck up, and i learn a lesson. so my dilemma was this:
should i invite christina's parents to the
wedding...knowing she lives at the residence? i felt bad,
because her parents were super nice to me, did a lot for
me, and i wouldnt want them to think i didnt want to have
anything to do with them. that would be wrong.

so my mother says to forget about it and let it go. some
sacrafices of the past need to be made to forge into the
future. so this time i decide to take her advice.

last night i had this dream, and it was symbolic, and
extremely cleansing. christina was at mine and sams house,
and was moving all of her various belongings out, she was
gathering belongings from other houses i have either
visited or lived in, and was putting them in a truck. they
were useless belongings, going into a broken truck, and no
one was mad or upset. sam seemed happy. tara was even
there, she talked to me and sam, and we helped christina
move. but mostly we watched her cry and move and sam held
my hand. then, in an instant...they were all gone. was
just me...and i woke up and drank some water. i felt
extremely clean for some reason. i guess because mentally
i am realizing that i dont have to hold on to anything of
the past, and on a spiritual level, things are better than
they have ever been, it just took my mind sometime to hit
the 'empty contents' on the recycle bin. either way, im
glad it happened.




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