FlirtWithSuicide

Conflagration
2004-11-07 02:45:05 (UTC)

And the Cycle Perpetuates Itself with My Altered Perception

Now, so many things have changed in my life, including,
and foremost, my location. I have moved many times since I
have last written, and I can honestly say that it is for
the
better. Now, I am living with my boyfriend and a mutual
friend. I
am also pregnant. I hold a steady job, and the drama
never ends. My living arrangements aren't precisely
satisfactory
at this point in time, but I can bear it as long as Mark is
with me. Any person is permitted to speak to me in
any manner that they so choose, although I
am supposed to live there. And yet people are rude and
disrespectful to me in this atmosphere. Not that I would
like
things to be perfect, but, rather, I would like them to
be........acceptable. How can I bring about conditions that
would
meet my standards? All that I know for certain is that I
must help myself, because I cannot sit and expect any other
person, fate, or god to do it for me.




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