Ms. R

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2004-11-05 00:06:33 (UTC)

Sixtysixth Entry- 11-4-04

What a difference a day makes!

I said a prayer....and, somehow, it was heard.

Last weekend, I broke down and e-mailed Ron. I was very
matter of fact. Tried to convince him that there was NO
reaxon we had to pretend we were dead to each other.
Reminded him of how much we cared about each other. I got
no reply...and I was still sad.

Then, last night, out of the blue, he called me. He said he
was SO sorry for everything....for hurting me, for acting
like an idiot. He said the last 2 1/2 weeks have been hell
for him. He couldnt sleep....couldnt concentrate. He was as
miserable as "I" was. He aaid he was wrong...that he
thought he was a loner....he was always happy by himself.
Then he met me and I turned his whole world upside down.
Suddenly he didnt want to be alone anymore...and it scared
him. But he said it wasnt fair to EITHER of us to be so
miserable apart. He said he read my letter over and over
again...and kept checking to see if I had sent him any
more....of course, I hadnt. I have my pride, after all. I
wasnt going to beg ANY man.

Then he said he loved me....he said he wanted me in his
life forever, if I would forgive him. He said he would take
the rest of his life to make up for the pain he had caused
me these past couple weeks.

WELL...you could have knocked me over with a feather! I was
in shock. And, yet, I knew he cared....just as much as I
did. He just had to have time to realize it. Tomorrow, we
are going to have breakfast together and talk and
understand what happened and why. I keep pinching myself to
make sure I am awake. I keep looking at Jim's picture and
thanking him for giving Ron back to me. And I promised him
I would make Ron happier than he has ever been in his life.
I cant WAIT till tomorrow!

And, I got an "A" on my midterm....and an "A" on my
magazine project. I got a check on my book cards, too. I
am on track to get another "A" on my group project and my
book readings are pretty current. If I can do well on the
final, I will have an "A" in the course....YES!!

I feel like I am on a roller coaster....only now I just
want to stay stuck up at the top....forever!!! :)




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