Anonymous

A Story a Day
2004-11-04 07:27:38 (UTC)

what to do

2:20am

i had a new way into my script today. i came up with it suddenly, maybe
yesterday, maybe this morning. i'm not sure. but i desperately wanted to
write it. it was a perfect way to start the story. she would come looking for
this man who disappeared from her life in new york. she would be alone and
looking for someone. the audience is immediately behind this even though
they don't have all the facts. that's what i want. it also builds up this person
a bit and doesn't reveal what the movie is really all about at first. anyway, i
wanted to get right to work so i decided to leave the house and sit in a
bookstore/hang out with my sister who's in town all day, then come home
and eat and watch dvds. i'm so fucking productive. i can't ever ceaze the
fucking moment anymore.

i'll get it back. this is a happier day by the way. i took a risk today that paid
off. i'm feeling powerful. the accutane is making my lips, eyes and glands
very dry now. i know my face is next. i'm also getting a headache. side
effects come first, yes yes. but then i'll be clear and the confidence will
return. again, it's so peculiar how fucking tied to my complexion my
confidence with everything is.




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