self inflicting tears

shitsandgiggles
2004-10-29 02:48:59 (UTC)

update

well nothing really has changed and i havent done much. i
am 37 wks pregnant and i have an appointment on tuesday
with the other doctor to set a date for the c-section. i
am alittle nervous but i am sure i will be alright. i just
cant wait i am getting really uncomfortable and i just
want to see them.

i still dont really talk to AL we pretty much fight now.
me and my family might be going to wisconsin for xmas and
so i am gonna spend a few days with amy and go out and
just hang out. i told him that i might be coming down but
now i dont want to tell him he is such and asshole to me
all the time. amy told me that i shouldnt tell him that i
might move back and it would be for good until i knew for
sure, but we were arguing one day and i thought i would
ruin it by telling him that, and he said that he hopes
that i that he doesnt see me, i told him that the town
isnt that big i am bound to run into him sometime. i mean
it only takes like 10 mins to drive from one end to the
other. so yeah i will see him. but oh well i just tell
myself that he will be the one that ends up lonely and
alone not me. i just think that he is in the relationship
with amanda for all the wrond reasons and i just wish that
he would come to his senses, but whatever. i am gonna go
now i am bored. bye




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