that one blonde chick

that one blonde chick
2004-10-18 05:15:58 (UTC)

GONE

i stare out the window, hoping some miricle will happen and
something will tell me what to do....
but no such thing comes....
maybe its because my eyes are so filled up with tears that
everything is a blur...
or maybe its because thats how life is suposed to work
out....
so i just sit here....
not moving from where i am....
not going forward...
nor backwards either...
im going in a circle in my mind, and im wearing my path
down....
soon i will be in a hole so deep that i can't be saved....
i will change into something that is not even me...
i will become passive and invisible...
i want to be that person i once was, the one who was
strong, and independent...
you took it all away....
what do you want from me....
you took all of it away from me already....
and then you lost it....
its all gone...
i have no more...
nothing is left to give...
you left me here shivering and lonely...
i have no shelter to run to....
you were my shelter and you are gone now...
all my trust is....
my trust is...
....it never was....
i never had it anyway...
i guess this could have hurt worse if i had trusted you...
but even behind all of this embarresment i feel this heat...
it burns me from inside my shaddered heart....
its still beating...
its not dead....
proof that i can't die of a broken heart....
and with all that you've done to me, it still beats for
you...
it still beats with your heart beat...
it still aches when you are gone....
it still melts when you are here....
its still here and waiting for some truth....
its waiting to be hurt again...
but never the less....
its still waiting for you.




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