rath

shhh... it's a secret....
2004-10-15 12:18:45 (UTC)

@_@

::sigh:: we got our assignment back. can't believe those
crap i wrote could actually get me a B

i think i should see a counselor. i'm going crazy~!! i was
just kidding abt sayin i'm in love with her .... but after
today's class... i realized that I AM in love with HER!!!
argh!!!

wat da hell am i suppose to do?! she said if i see it as a
problem, i can go see a counselor. a shrink??? she didn't
see it as a problem. then, why should i??? this is getting
very confusing.... i can still concentrate in her class
but not other classes. i was thinkin during Consti law
class that she's the one teaching in front. well, i told
her that yesterday. she laughed. i also told her that i
resubmitted my assignment just so that i can see her. she
laughed... well, chuckled.

she understood everything that i said yesterday and she
concluded that my parents r pressuring me too much.
they're damn worried abt me transfering to UK in 2006. she
asked a hell lot of questions and i answered them. it was
fun. she asked irrelevent questions and i foolishly
answered

i talked to her abt animes!! i don't think she understood
everything on that part but she listened. i told her that
i resorted to anime becoz my parents doesn't really
understand the way i am. so, the best thing to do when ur
parents doesn't understand u is by spending a lot of money
on unnecessary things!! da dvds really cost a bomb...

::sigh:: she was damn cute yesterday and she's damn
elegant (and cute ^_^) today. no matter how she did her
hair, she looked good! and the way she talked (in class
and after class).... if any of u listen to her, u'd feel
the same way and the way she looked at me... man, i went
to Japan all over agn!! it was a bit hard to concentrate
when u hv someone like her teaching a subject like that. i
mean, most people hate ELS. even she used to hate it. but
now everything is at the tip of her fingers.

oh yeah, she told me that her mom calls her 5 times a day.
worried maybe lol i was telling her abt how my parents
tried to control me and my sisters. and she actually told
me that. i don't think she would tell anyone abt her
personal life.

i'm not the first to actually tell her that i like her.
she said that there were a few before me but i'm the first
to actually talk to her abt it. the rest sent her letters
confessing their feelings. hmm... maybe i should've done
the same... but i'm bad at writing hehehe she seemed
pleased abt it tho. i'm better at talking anyway. it was
damn hard to actually start the conversation. she thought
that i was having problems with my studies. i don't think
wat i told her was wat she expected. she said that i
shouldn't think abt it too much. but then she said that
she knows that it's easy for her to say it. see how
understanding she is? who wouldn't want someone like
that?? her husband is a very lucky man. her daughter is
damn lucky too, to actually have a mother like her.

she accepted the way i am and didn't see it as a problem.
she's not offended and all. that's good.... right?

damn.......... my world is upside down.......




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