Samari

Cloaked Lesbian Mari
2004-10-15 03:37:50 (UTC)

i never thought it would happen

i guess im a better actress than i thought. I layed there
and through out the whole ordeal i lied to my self and to
him. All i could think about was her...when he came in i
tore his jacket off and hoody and flashes of her were
before me...as
he pulled my shirt above my head i imagined her sliding
her hands up my 26in waist passed my 32D's to reveal me
there half naked. he kissed me and as i kissed back the
thought of her touching me made dominate him with my tongue
and hands as we kissed he layed me on the bed and held my
hands above my head resting on the bed spread then as he
kissed down my lips to my neck hitting my spot in the deep
he kissed lower past and around my navel and with each
kissed i tried not to but the harder i resisted the wetter
i got and i couldn't help it. i imagined it has her warm
soft lips and her hands that touched me as he continued
lower fondling me and making me moan with his tongue hittin
all the right spots.as he turned me around and put the cap
on my sick mind imagining it was her pulling my hair and
holding me tight with
each thrust and as i came i knew that i hasn't having sex
with him my body was there but my mind was completly gone.
i was there but i wasn''t. the worst thing about it besides
i've never met her in person but only through the cam and
IM, is that i can't tell anyone not her and definatly not
him. not that i would have to because according to him he
doesnt want a girlfriend he isn't ready for the comitment,
but he couldn't tell me that before the first year and
before i got feelings. i told her my situation with him and
u know what she said she told me i was the person who is is
back up he doesnt need me to be his girlfriend cuz whenever
he needs the love and attention he figures i'll always be
there so whats the use and you know what she was 100%
right.she tells me thing and ifee close to her she says
it's becasuse she understands me and that she understands
and that im beautiful, and real and all the things that
average person wouldnt know....i trust her and i've never
even physically met her and i dont trust easy.she
complements my and says thigs and makes me feel sexy and i
love it i wish he could do these things like she does. i
can be IMing her then as we're talking im just like
infactuated is what i think its called maybe thats it...im
infactuted. maybe i want her to take me and kiss me like he
should be doing, or maybe i need a guy who can be what i
need instead of what i want...i really dont know ne
more....all i know is that im scared because i like her but
i dont know to what exstint, i mean if i was around her and
she said something or did something what would i do... im
so lost i have never been here beforebefore i was cool now
i dont know. the only reason i got on is cuz i wanted to
talk to her but she isn't on and i dont know if she will
be. the thought of her touching me man it's like i qant to
be friend with her just friends but i cant help nut to
think of us as more than that and im not gay or bi it's
just this girl it's something familiar and calming and
soothing and inticing about her that makes me think about
her like this i want to tell her whats going on with me but
i can't even though part of wants to so bad. im so lost. i
want her to know but i dont want her to know but i had to
tell some one so i might as well tell u:}

"samari"




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