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there is no dignity in death
2004-10-10 08:58:36 (UTC)

par-tay

well...had the party last night...it was soo gay at the
start...everyone was just sitting there not talking not
doing ne thing...heaps cool...but then ppl started to get
some drinks into them and loosened up...
overall i think it went pretty good. Everyone seemed to be
getting along....dustin was definatley the life of the
party...aswell as daniel...i think my mates are in love
with them...
i was so over the fkn talks tho from ppl...every 10 minutes
someone dragged me off for a deep and meaningful. First it
was dust which was fine coz we needed to talk...then it was
daniel..then it was shanny for half an hour...then bradyn
wanted to talk...like dont get me wrong it was good to see
that they cared and the things they said were great..but
come on...it was my party....yeah lets get all depressed
and serious at ur own party...pretty fun...

but um....i was so happy that everyone got
along...especially dustin with chris n matt....i tihnk
because they are the closest to my age and i was just
hoping that dustin would like em coz they mean alot to me,
mainly matt coz he helps me through so much shit....lmao i
passed out on matt for like 10mins...then he had to wake me
up...but then i threw up...lol...not cool...i think i was
the only one...but hey...its my party so im meant to do
that right?....but i really dont think that the last shot i
had helped before daniel held me upside down for 10mins
slamming me up against everyone and everything....my head
was soooo sore...

one thing that ruined it towards the end was dave...as per
usual...its almost like its his role to do that every
party...the "old group" just waits for him to crack the
shits...

but i have to admit that my weekend was pretty screwed
up... i think me n anthony spoke about 5 times the whole
night...and then he wouldnt speak to me later on in the
night...wouldnt go near me in the morining and wouldnt tell
me what was up...it was until just before he left to go
home that he told me what was up....
dave had told him that i cheated on him...i was so pissed
off but i think i was hurt more...i still am...and will
continue to be....the thing that hurt the most was that
anthony partly believed him...so much for trust...wait
until i see dave tomoz...
but i reckon i know why he did it...dave has always liked
me...and i dont know if other ppl notice it..but i surely
do...the whole night he just watched me...wherever i
was...whatever i was doing...
whenever i go out with someone he is always so shitty and
always tells me to break up with them...and thats what he
is trying to do with me n anthony..but the other way
round...
but um....i think we sorted it out..but its always going to
be in the back of my mind...
but besides that crap...me n timmy had a good chat...lol
bout anthony mostly...we were seeing if he got
jealous...coz i dont think he ever does but timmy thinks
that he does...i dont think it worked...if i was anthony i
woulda been so shitty...but hey im the jealous one i
suppose...o and last night i was so shitty with ash and
that...whenever i saw anthony she was hanging off him...its
was disgusting...felt like going over there and ripping her
off him...but i suppose if he didnt want her on him he
woulda told her to fuck off...

ne way...overall i was pretty happy with the way the night
turned out...but next time...nick aint invited...and bradyn
and jamie shouldnt have another party and other ppl
shouldnt work so they are on tme...

lol o and the dress...i felt like the biggest loser and im
sure i looked like one aswell...i loved the shoes...but i
felt like me feet were going to explode later on in the
night...now i know why i dont dress up and wear
dresses..pretty scary if u ask me...and anthony wore a
suit! i was so happy...and he looked as cute as i thought
he would...i was actually pretty impressed with the way
everyone scrubbed up...i thnk only dust n timmy werent
dressed up...but thats a pretty good turn out...

well im gonna go coz this entry is fkn huge...
um..yeah...have to see my councellor tomorrow...dont want
to go..i just want to be left alone...im sick of talking to
ppl about my screwed up head...

catchya ppl
thanx for coming guys

p.s...thank you so much for the presents everyone...they
were all great and i was happy that ppl put alot of thought
into them...u guys rock




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