Hollie bee

KiKi lAnd
2004-10-09 00:37:42 (UTC)

rock-A-bye

dude i woke up this morning im standing in my moms bathroom
goopifying/ploofing my hair.
and the phone rang and she screamed at me to stop it with
the blowdryer and shes got this Horrifying look on her face.
i thought it was the hospital or something.
calling with something about a family member or something
it ends up being MRS BROMAN.
she told my mom i got a 39 on my test yesterday and that i
didnt do my homework.
kAy, i find it VERY believable to get a 39 on the test
however. I SHOWWED HER ALL MY HOMEOWRKS yesterday
how did i NOT do them? ..she Lied
so my mom got Wikkid ticked with me and she annoyed the
shit out of me..
so i was just like "You cant even take care of all the Shit
thats going on in your OWN life, how about you leave mine
Alone." ... dont need her fucking me up anymore
thats no good.
she didnt even hear me the first time i said
so i had to walk up to her reitterate myself
which made her 10 times more pissed.
and whenever shes yells at me i just grill her hardcore.
i stand there with my hands in my pockets just staring VERY
blankly and i know it makes her so nervous. one time she
cried because i just.. Dont have emotions.
..whatever.. she made it this way...
so thats how my day STARTED...
then i had school thats always shitty.
and then i went to izAiAhs for skAlAndiA practice
i played like Ass though...
i keep having panic attacks i cant breath and shit from
chest pain. So hopefully i dont croak at the pArAde.
like the last time i passed out....
passing out is so Random and wEird
BAM Down.. and its like. wake up and having no idea
scwhat just happened? so weird. so yeah
i got home.
and ate and i felt a very bad vibe when i came home
i asked my mom what the fuck happened.
she said nothing happened..
another Lie. because then 10 minutes later she told me what
happened. its always something, every fuckin day. bullshit.
over the SAME FUCKING THING for the past SEVEN years.
...7... years. how do people put up with that.
i dont put up with shit for more than 7 minutes before i
Flip out.
i dunno why people just chill and dont do ANYTHING to fix
the status quo, watch everything dissapAte.
this is sick. ive watched for 7 years the decline of my
parents and FINALLY.. the expected.Divorce.
why did i have to see that..?
28 years. wasted?
if my parents never had me.. theyd be divorced by now.
everything is a mistake.

you dont see me
i threw you the obvious
just to see if theres more behind
the eyes of a fallen angel
eyes of a tragedy
here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded
but i see through it all
see you
COS I THREW YOU THE OBVIOUS




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