Sexy Sady

Unseen Beauty, Untamed Lust
2004-09-29 04:37:02 (UTC)

late...again

once again my period is late. nothing huge, just gives me
a mild heart attack until it starts. plus, i already had a
scare w/ the last guy i slept w/ b4 this, so i'm not about
to drag anyone into it. if it gets bad and i still havent
had it by my 21st birthday, next friday, and if i get to
chill w/ him that day i'll tell him. but otherwise i dont
care much. but maybe thats just cuz i'm drunk. the guy
isnt really talkin to me lately. i dont even know if hes
still gonna go bar hopping w/ me for my bday. i hope so.
he is a good friend. hes just very on and off w/ me. but
what does it matter. hes probably just paranoid i might
get attached. even though i'm not the type to get
emotionally attached to someone....ever. or maybe he
doesnt want to become attached to me. who knows. maybe if
we get drunk together on my bday and get to talk just the
2 of us, for a moment, i can get some answers out of him.
i very much doubt it though. he keeps to himself. even
when he let me read his poetry, he kept his head low and
would look away when i would tell him what i thought of
it. most often he'd say "i was probably drunk." even if it
is really good he says that.avoids showing any deep
emotion, despite i know he feels deeper than anyone can
see. i think its his most beautiful trait. his weaker,
fragile state. thats where hope lies.




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