Zach

CloudStrifeOmn
2004-09-25 05:22:02 (UTC)

Yeah...

Went to the game tonight it wasnt to bad i stood next to
Erin for pretty much all of it n stuff it was fun she was
trying to get me to dance and do cheers for more spirit
but it wasnt working the best...oh well probably next time
it will....it really was better next to her for the whole
game though, donno exactly why but yeah after it we drove
all the way out to her house but her parents were home so
we left and just hung around at my house...jason fell
asleep so i woke him up and took him home then i took
bridget home..talk about the worst lonliest drive ever, i
really didnt wanna be near bridget or jason...i was almost
mad i wanted to go get high with other people...ya sounds
horrible dosent it...ya cuz it is but whatever...i really
wanted to just hang and get to know Erin better but since
the rents were home the whole smokin thing started soundin
good...i guess i just like bein with other people, i hate
how all my friends hit on each other it's really annoying
and old, they should really just do somethin about it god
damn so anyway i've like no gas but it's cool i'll get
some more tomarrow..i feel so fuckin depressed i almost
wanted to cry on the way home from bridgets...donno what's
wrong with me...

got tina's response to my e-mail...it's nice she says i'm
perfect but i'm not...or maybe i am and i hate it so much
i'm trying not to be...whatever the case i know i'm not
perfect lol...that made real sense..i'm not as great as
she thinks...i'm just a good friend that's all...like
today in the viking center jason graham and sam were
sittin there and graham was tellin jason how his mom would
let him take 2 other friends out saturday ALL day and do
whatever for free...yeah betcha know how i felt when i
knew i wasnt going to be one of the two...it probably
wouldnt of bothered me if they were makin a big deal outta
it.. "oh dude yeah tomarrow's gonna be the best!! were
gonna be pimpin!! dude it's all free, a day with good
friends" shut the fuck up bitches....pisses me off do it
when i'm not around...that way atleast i can still feel
i'm one of your good friends...guess i'm not like i
thought i was..guess i'm not good enough, not fun enough
to come along...not good enough of a friend...fuck
everything gots to be so stupid and emotional...if i didnt
have emotions nothin would happy then i wouldnt feel a
thing...oh well..i gotta go talk to amanda...




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