MoonShine Baby

Moonshine Baby of St.James
2004-09-24 01:25:25 (UTC)

I HATE YOU SOMETIMES

i hate you alot right now and you and my dad are all i've
got i never understand you because you won't tell me but
you won't let me see my family and i guess this means i
wouln't ever meet them and the fact that there not even
yours dosen't mean anything to you and i hate the fact that
just cause your this and your that and your just so much
smarter then me and my daddy won't go agaist you he just
sitts there wagging his tail like this is the best thing in
the world....I know that you might have a reason for it
dosn't mean you can just cut me off...... but sence i'm not
allowed to ... i won't go alone and daddy sure as hell
won't take me he'll just tell me where his mom and dad and
his grandma are lyed in then ground and i am gonna go see
your dad's tombstone but thats all ....just because i will
never see a picture of them and i've only seen a picture of
your mom and thats the end of that the only picture that
i've seen of your dad was his Death certificte but you
don't know any of this that.... i told brindy about not
ever meeting my family other then grandparents that i don't
give a crap about and my uncle eddie and the two cusions
that i will mostlikely not ever see again and she said just
cause you can't see your family your always welcome to come
see my family and i told her the truth that you said we'll
talk about it and you knew that we don't really talk so
that means NO and all i could think was god mom you won't
let me see my own family and you won't let me see other
people's family and just cause i live in FL and brindys
family live in NY you promised me last year that i could go
when they went but now it's like your ashmed of me and i
don't understand it ....I don't wanna make this like a
thret but i feel like i'm becomeing somethin else i don't
like this feeling i hate it infact and i just thought about
barb teaching me gutiar lessons that i've been wanting fer
ever and i just felt to deepressed to do anything right
now ........ GOD I HATE YOU SOMETIMES

Becky

P.S. you act like theres never anything wrong errrr...




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