ErykahKayne

My Daily Bread
2004-09-19 18:31:48 (UTC)

i miss him!

so so much. but anyway, let's not talk about that or i'll
get depressed again. i made some BOMB ASS spaghetti today.
i mean, the shit was the best i ever tasted. and the sauce
was home made. that's probably why it tasted so good. i put
tomatoes of course, zucchinis, onions, fresh garlic, yellow
and green peppers, mushrooms, and polish sausage. and let
me tell u, i put my my whole body not just the foot into
that. i mean...i don't know. it's just good as hell. and i
ain't being biased cuzz i made it. even my mom (who i'm not
speaking to right now) said it was good as hell..and we,
well i know how piccy she is about shit. after i made it i
couldn't eat that much, because for some rason after i cook
a big meal..even though it wasn't that big, i'm not as
hungry as i was when i started. so now, after i've had an
hour i'ma go devour it. hehehehehe. i guess i'll take my
baby some tomorrow. if i EVER see him again. i studied for
my essay today. i know ALL MY SHIT! i'm so proud of myself.
if i get lower than B on this shit it's a travesty. it's
about proteins and mutations and shit. and i know it! i'm
so happy. tomorrow i'ma go in there and write my shit and
throw up the deuces. then i don't know what i'ma do,
besides wait for my baby to get off work or something.
hmmm....i might not even see him tomorrow because i really
dont' want to wait that long. he need to hurry up and
finish this extra duty shit. but that won't be until the
18th of next month. i'm trying to hang in there. this
sunday is his brithday. i don't know what i'm going to do
or get him besides a card and a candle. the candle is so he
can always find his way bacc home. in the midst of an
argument, or when we're not speaking, or whatever is going
on, he can light it, meditate, and he'll always find his
way bacc to the middle.(i love that india arie song) which
is ME! every year i'ma give him one. besides that i don't
really know. i wanted to take him out, but since he's on
restriction i'll save that for next month when he's off.
speaking of next month, i'm going on a retreat with Mommy.
that she wants me to go on with the church. i agreed. maybe
it'll be nice. my first question was..do they have good
food? she said yes so that settled it. it's from the 18th -
22nd. the 22nd is my birthday. even though i won't get to
get fucced up like i planned for my 20th i will enjoy it. i
was thinking bout smokin that many blunts to start off the
night or the evening or whatever, but i don't know if that
will happen. i'm kinda skeptical, me being preggie and all.
i don't want the baby to be inhaling all that smoke. i'll
smoke a couple though. i do know that. and before anybody
sends me feedbacc about smoking while pregnant..u can save
it because believe me, i've done my research and talking to
my doctor..and i don't see the harm. oh yeah speaking of
smoking, did i tell u i don't smoke squares anymore? and it
wasn't even hard to quit. i wonder why people have such a
hard time. i thought i was pregnant a couple months ago,
and was like "Fucc this." my baby don't need to be weighing
2lbs or have any birth defects or anything like that. and
just like that i quit. maybe it's because i wasn't a real
smoker to begin with, although i was moving into being one
pretty rapidly. i'm good now though. smoking is a nasty
habit. i've been telling my baby he need to quit. but bacc
to the bud..yeah i slowed down, because i dont' think my
smoking habit the way it used to be..that is everyday and
all the time would be good seeing as how i do have a little
one inside me. so i slowed down. i barely smoke twice a
week now. and it's not hard either. but on my birthday i
will be chiefin..maybe not 20 though i don't think that
would be good. but i'ma be good n blowed i know that. and
that's all i have to say about that. on that note, i'm
going to call my baby, watch the rest of this movie, and
eat me some skettis. pz ya'll




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