Hakerz338

Grass is Greener on the Other Side
2004-09-18 08:50:49 (UTC)

Insomnia

2 years ago, we went to HC together, a year ago she went to
HC, and broke down, and i tore myself apart. Present, she
went to HC, I'm no longer her BF, and I'm tearing myself
apart. I hung out with the guys today, and their GFs. Kelly
walks in and she's like hey moon, what's up...How is liz?
So i was like ok. You guys doing ok? I was like umm...
we're on a break. We're in a room with like 8 people and
there were like twenty something conversations going and
they all stopped. What did you do? I love it that they
automatically assume it's me. She's like well, have you
gotten over it? You know breaks are like break ups without
the up. Everyone in the room has gone through a break and
they all agreed. After a break, a break up is around the
bend. I know FREE had this, Nukes had it, Thespias had it
and many others. It's not that I don't believe in our
relationship. It's just I'm afraid. I'm not going to get my
hopes high and then have them come crashing down. This
already hurts so much. I want her back, I really do. I
haven't slept since Monday. I've had a bad case of
insomnia. I've spent like the past two days looking at our
old pictures. How she looked so beautiful. How we looked so
happy. I want that back. I packed up my bags, and I'm
taking the one year present with me, our pictures, and my
favorite hoodie. Atleast then while I'm there, I can get
the present finished when I'm not sleeping. I'm also taking
Coco, sounds silly I know. He's going to keep me company in
the car, and he can watch me finish up my present to LSR
for our one year. I've decided that if our one year never
occurs I'm still giving it to her. I love her so much. I'm
just lost without her. I need her. Sigh...

L8r Dayz
4:50 AM




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