Slasher

Slasher's Stuff
2004-09-11 07:47:41 (UTC)

Sept. 11, 04

could things really be going any worse? Well actually yes i
could not have any cigarettes or being trying to quit again
and have to put up with all this shit. ARGH!!!! Seriously
what the fuck have i done to deserve this? Okay so maybe
its not as bad as i am making it out to be. jacklyn told me
today that she is pregnant, ha who saw that one comming?i
sure didn't. i think that is prob what really set
everything off another friend, another baby and then all
the shit at theatre. im sorry but why now do the fucking
slashes matter so much? maybe its them and the lines.
hello this is comming up on year since i first started
doing them. why now? why is all this shit comming up now?
thats how this entire year has been going everything starts
now. you start caring and worring now . i have been cutting
for six years now, why do you freak out now? don't tell me
that i am not indestructible because that just makes me
think that i am even more. i know freshman year it was
obvious that there was caring and then after the koolaid
hair dye, but no real comments. and comming up to me and
smelling my drink, what the fuck was that about? since when
are you my mother? and um last night i wanted to fucking
kill myself and was ignored by rob and katie. rob said that
i could talk to her any time i needed her and well i did
and she didnt answer. she also said i could call robin and
there was no way in hell i was talk to her after what she
had just done to me because smelling my drink wtf is that?
congradufuckilations you think im an alcoholic, why dont
youjust ask me to do a fucking sobriety test? argh. she
makes me wonder tho, cause after i told her i cut we talked
a little bit but she seems distant, i hate the silence of
not knowing what she is thinking. ill be
back later to vent more i know it, until then i will just
keep slahing until the pain stops or i bleed to death.




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