kiss me, kill me, hold me, thrill me
2004-09-09 01:52:21 (UTC)

September 3, 2004 2:11 PM

So the goal is to post all these entries online soon.  I'm not sure if
that will happen though.

I came up with a great idea yesterday.  I could make all these entries
into a book.  Well, I could use parts of them and create a story around
them.  Then flesh it out with some embelishments.  I'll make it a little
less like reality and more like fantasy.  The way I wanted things to end
up a couple years ago when I was all confused about John and Dave.

Back then I had a very different picture of how things could turn out.
I was just so sure that if I needed a backup plan that Dave was it.  No
matter who I married out of the two of them I'd be in heaven for life.

All this talk causes me to think about what would happen now.  I mean if
I became single for some reason...what would happen?  I'm guessing I'd
hang out with Dave more, but I think it would take a long time before we
considered dating.  Well, at least six months.

Anyway, all that is just idle thought.  I'm currently at work doing
stuff and trying to keep busy when my mind keeps wandering off.  It
happens to be Friday which adds to my dreamy thoughts.  I get to see Cal
and Dave tomorrow!

I still don't know what I'm going to wear.  I figured out which pants
but I'm undecided on shirt.  What I want to wear I wore a week ago, but
Dave and Cal didn't see me wearing the outfit.  Besides, Dave has never
seen me in my blue shirt that is similar to his.  I now think mine is a
brighter blue, but we haven't compared them ever.

It would be funny if he wore his tomorrow too.  He sometimes plans that
I think.  He knows I really like it on him.  That color is really
amazing on him!

Oh my goodness, what am I going to do with my hair?  It looks so blah
these days.  Part of it is the weather.  Maybe I will blow dry it and
put in some of the hair glue stuff I have.  That could lead to something
interesting.  I thought about putting it up with my little white hat,
but John would say it looked silly and I know Dave likes my hair a
little long.  So not hat covering my hair tomorrow.

I can't wait to show Cal and Dave my car.  I sent Dave a link to images
of it, but he didn't have much to say about it.  Seeing it in person I
bet he'll at least give it a once over and make a comment.  Well, that's
my hope.

All day today I have been freezing cold.  I don't have any idea why.  So
I need someone or something to warm me up.

Now I'm getting really tired.  I want to go home early, but that won't
happen.  I'll be here another 2.3 hours.

So I'm starting a mixed media project for David.  He asked me to make an
art piece for his new house.  Yesterday I got a cool idea.  I have an
image of a typewriter with a coffee cup and a fan that looks all retro.
So I'll print that as the background.  Then I'll paint an outline of a
girl's panty area.  Like from the waist to the thighs.  Over top of all
of that I'll type out a not so disturbing bit from something I've

I think I'll use something I've written about Renee.  I always seem to
have interesting things to say about her.  Or I could get bold and write
something about my true feelings for his ex-girlfriend...Probably not a
good idea.