hipeechic

Life's Sporadic Course
2004-09-06 21:01:50 (UTC)

The Next Big Step

It's been a while since I've blogged. Honestly, I can't
tell you why it has been so long, but I feel as if the lost
part of myself has somewhat been found. I guess I'm trying
to say that I feel like I'm in touch with my self, again.

The Next Big Step:

I just spent three long months in a hotel in Fayette-Nam
(Fayetteville, NC) training for my new position as a
Service Manager for Texas Roadhouse. It was not easy. I
spent most of my time either studying or drinking, ha. I
never was a big drinker until I was in Fayette-Nam. I've
had the past 5 days off because I'm moving to ATL. I've
been packing my things... memories mostly. They've been
packed away for a few days now, and they're starting to
hurt. I've moved around a lot the past 3 years, but the
other moves didn't seem to hurt this bad. I believe it has
something to do with the fact that I'm moving by myself
this time. All the other times I had a friend, but this
time it's just me, and that's scary to me. I am moving in
with another person, only I don't know him really. I met
him online thru a roommate service, oddly enough. Some
people believe that there are only weird, scary people
online, but hopefully I'm a good judge of character. I
think what hurts the most is that I'm leaving my pet behind
with my ex. My black lab Dakota is the best pet I've ever
had, and somehow I feel like I'm a mom abandoning her
baby. I'm sure he'll be fine without me, but he's part of
my comfort zone that I won't have with me when I move
tomorrow. My new roommate has a bullmastiff, but I don't
think he'll replace Dakota. I think it's time for me to
step up to my fear of moving alone and face the fact that
it's time to move on and meet new people in a new places.

These are my thoughts.

~Butternuts




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