FloydianSlip

Going Postal
2004-09-05 01:58:50 (UTC)

Killer headache from outer space

I had my first pregnancy scare this past couple of weeks.
It didn't worry me as much as I thought it would because
of several reasons I just didn't feel like I was
pregnant. It turns out I was right, thankfully.

Anyone who's seen me around kids should know that kids
light up my life. I want some of my own someday...just
not right now in my life. I'm not ready and neither is
Jeremy. I wouldn't want to make that decision either of
what to do.

I could never kill a child so abortion is out of the
question for me. I wouldn't want to have to make the
choice of keeping it and wondering how I'm going to feed
it and give it necessities or giving it up for adoption.

That was one of the hardest things I've ever had to think
seriously about, and I honestly don't know if I could give
it up for adoption. It's a part of me and Jeremy...I
think I'd be more in the mindset of "we can make it
work." ...Though I know realistically we'd have to see
what kind of situation we were in at the time it came.
Had I been pregnant we probably would have had to give it
up for adoption.

I hated having to put Jeremy though that, but it was
something that was pretty unavoidable. Besides, he
deserved to know what was going on.

Thinking positively I think it strengthened our
relationship a little more than it was. I've proven
myself trustworthy and he's proven himself trustworthy. I
knew he was going to be loving and supportive right from
the start, but I was hoping he wouldn't be one of those
people that run away when something's really wrong. "This
is your problem you deal with it I'm outta here, bye" kind
of thing. And I was right...he wasn't. I'm happy. :)

There are three.

...Even Clive was more loving than usual. He could tell
something was bothering me so he'd be extra nice to me or
make sure to come up and paw my leg and let me know he was
worried about me. It was just cute.

I love caramel apples.

I have a killer headache and I just can't get rid of it.
I've tried almost everything.

Mom was telling me about this house she cleans now that
she's got a job. It's a 7 bedroom 5 bathroom two story
house with a basement. She said it was really nice and
that she really likes it. It sounds nice. I'm thinking
about going up there sometime when I get some money coming
in just to take a peek...not inside but outside. I'm sure
it's a pretty good sized house.

Maybe if I go soak in another bath it might help...

We don't have a bath where I'm living. It really sucks
too because every now and then I'd like to be able to
enjoy a nice long hot bath. Maybe I should go to all the
girls floors in my building and check out their bathrooms
and see which floors have a bath and request that next
year... Is it really worth all the trouble?

My roomate hasn't shown up yet. I'm pretty sure I'll get
a letter this week asking if I want another roomate or
not. I'd be so tempted to check no, but I haven't got the
money to pay for it so I'll have to get another roomate.
That sucks. Oh well...it's probably a good thing. It'd
be nice if I had one I really click with. It would be
like having a sister...I never had one of those. I wonder
what it's like at times.

Dr. Giggles was on last night on AMC. I love that movie
*just* for the scenes Dr. Giggles is in. "Time to take
your medicine..." ...And that laugh!

Jeremy confessed that he never got to play Doctor as a kid
so we made up for that lack of experience after the
movie. ;) Oh yes we did. ...Best doctor's visit I've
ever had.




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