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my stupid mouth
2004-08-31 03:01:22 (UTC)

can't nobody do it like you do

alternately titled: rap stars who need grammar lessons.
please, ashanti, please get help while you still can.

i thought when i went to work tonight that i only had 10
more hours there until i was free for months...but then
cheryl asked me to work tomorrow. i wouldn't have cared if
i didn't have to go in at 7. oh well.

i worked with the new woman on marketing tonight. her name
is debbie, so now we have 2, which can get confusing. i
always call her "the new debbie." i hadn't really worked
with her before, but tonight it was just the two of us
working. i came in an hour before her. we did markdowns
the whole time. i was worried we wouldn't have anything to
talk about since she's 30 and married and just recently had
a baby. i mean, how can i relate to that? but it wasn't
awkward at all. i guess it's good to talk to people in
that age range because they're old enough to give advice
but young enough to remember what it was like to be a
teenager. we talked about everything under the sun. i
have a new perspective on pregnancy and childbirth. and
she lived near boston for awhile, so she told me about
that. she's so incredibly nice. it's unbelievable. oh,
and when we were leaving, she wished me a happy birthday
because she had remembered hearing me tell someone about it
the other day. it's kind of sad that we just got to know
each other and now i won't be back for awhile.

i thought a lot about all of my conversations last night
throughout the day today. honestly, i don't thin i'll ever
get over nick until i have a real relationship with
someone. at least now i only think about him after i've
taked to him. it's not a constant thing. and troy...that
was so strange. but i like that we can just pick up a
conversation with each other after not talking for years.
and it's not strained either. i suppose that after 2 years
there should be a lot to talk about. i wasn't quite sure
how to sum up the past two years in a few concise IMs. and
then i was thinking about how i wished i had gone to wpi.
of course, i don't really wish that. i just felt left out
talking to everone who's there, and they're all having a
great time. i mean, i could have chosen any career path.
not to sound vain, but i know i could have done fine at
whatever i had chosen, at least while i was in school.
it's not a question about being able to learn how to do
things. it's a question of being happy doing whatever i
choose to do. maybe i would've been happy being around the
people who are there, but it might not be worth it in the
long run because i could see myself hating my job. but i'm
thinking about minoring in math, so what difference does it
make? oh well, it's too late for regrets now. or maybe
too soon.




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