*MS JLYN*

*ALL CRIED OUT OVER U*
2004-08-30 16:11:45 (UTC)

NEW OUTLOOK

Well, I talked to "2shay" the other morning. He called me
at six something, so it caught me off guard. But I told
him what was up and he asked if I hated him because all
that I had to go through.....I honestly am no longer mad
at him. I mean, I had to sit and think about the situation
from the very beginning and not just the drama that
resulted from talking to him. I can't sit here and say
that its all on him. I'm not giving him an excuse at all,
but I never argued against him when he did what he
did.....so.....if I'm gonna waste time hating him, then I
should hate myself because it was the TWO OF US who were
stupid enough to think that we could do whatever without
anything happening. I just can't dwell on this forever and
I think that if I would have kept all this anger in me and
never talked to him, then I would always be mad and think
about it. So for the record, I'm not mad at him and I
don't hate him. I still regret talking to him and I regret
not being smart about the decisions I made w/ him. All I
can do now is learn from it and not make the same mistake
twice. End of story.....*Jocelyn*




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