Nissie RoKz

Pink,... Punk... Life RoKz!
2004-08-26 00:04:24 (UTC)

Xanga- July 16

Carve Your heart Out yourself
By: Dashboard

Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has
Lord it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never
dreamt at all
Oh look, now, there you go with hope again
But I'll be sure your secret is safe with me
Oh, you're so sure I'll be leaving in the end
Treating me like I'm already gone

But I'm not, I will stay where you are always
I will stay, I will stay, I will stay (all of now)

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Yeah i no its kinda silly to put this here, but wow... im
the girl... in both cases, the silly one and the lonely
one... but i still cant understand that hes not goin to
leave me... leave me like everyone else did.... *tear*


Um... somthing else, what do i stand for? is there NE
thing... im worth gettin in trouble over, worth my time...
like i no gay rights DUH thats a give in... but other
things like, i dont no. I was just thinkin where do i
stand? Everyone seems to have somthing to fight for, to
wake up for... and then theres me, not sure what "group" i
would even be in... i guess its a good thing, not to no b/c
that means my friends are great for not puttin me in a
gourp but thats what i was thinkin about thursday night,
when i was outside.

I felt like no one wanted me there, and then when
everything happened it was like wow, i didnt no what to
say, i felt so sick. and like well i dont want to put the
thing i want to put, b/c of who reads this. I no she will
not understand. but by the end of the night. *insert name
here* looked at me, crying inside, i could tell... and all
i could do was stair back as if to say, its ok... your ok!
everyone was around her, lookin at her, but yet she was
lookin at me... me! and i wasnt even doin that much, i just
stode there lookin at her, she was cryin inside... you no
what i mean... like her eyes were screamin HELP ME, and all
i did was stand there. Why didnt i stand up for her? why
wasnt i there? i guess its b/c that night i got the idea
she hated me or somthing. I guess i no now, and i wish i
would have done somthing. In a way i think i did, but i
will never forget that look... it plays over and over.....


~D-Nissie~

^^^
HA, you like? I no courtney will! *Wink*




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