Zach

CloudStrifeOmn
2004-08-24 23:22:39 (UTC)

Interesting...

Funny how it takes reading something else for you to push
yourself over the edge to a new place...like stepping up
(as football coaches put it- to advance to a new level and
become a better player) but i'm talking about..not sure
how to put it..something about myself though, reading
Tina's diary got me to say that there's alot of things I
want to do..but I dont even though i didnt "say" it..i
typed it and it was like something popped and i
automatically felt better about things..not that anythings
wrong at the moment..maybe it was just wierd knowing we
wanted to talk to each other..that i spent an hour laying
in bed wanting to get my lazy sore ass up just to atleast
say goodnight to her..but i didnt..and she wanted to talk
to me..I'm only beating myself up about this because i
wanted to talk to her too..i always to..or atleast just
know she's there if were having one of our not very
talkative days..it's like she's a light taking some of the
darkness away..just making me feel better knowing she's
around..hm.. i miss seeing her..i spose even sometimes if
she things i should give up..it's hard to give up on
something that makes you smile....i'm glad school starts
in 2 days...it means i'll see tina again..and even if that
means i must start ap history and take a test on the first
day..it's worth it...but that's what college is
like..taking a test on your first day..not only to show
what you dont know..but to help you learn about
yourself..to help you know what you must learn..




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